After years of reading about heartbreak and experiencing it through the eyes of others, I have finally experienced it myself and it is truly a lonely and painful experience. I used to scoff at it, thinking people were exaggerating when they said it left a scar on them. I used to tell myself that I would never cry over a boy because surely no one would be worth so much of my tears and emotions but I was proven wrong. I’ve learned that heartbreak can be an emotional earthquake that leaves permanent destruction in its wake and I was a fool to underestimate it. 

Heartbreak left its mark on me in many ways. I was in a whirlwind of anger, disbelief, and disgust when it first happened. I was angry at how it happened, in disbelief at how quickly it happened, and disgusted at myself for letting it happen. It felt like my life had changed for the worse as I ran through a whirlwind of emotions only to be met in the end with a feeling of emptiness. Happy memories became tainted as what was once a happy relationship that I thought would last forever was erased with just a few words.

In the first few days, it felt like I was being sucked into a black hole of low self-esteem, guilt, and ‘what ifs’. The ‘what ifs’ were the worst. ‘What if we hadn’t had that fight?’, ‘What if we had met up in person to communicate instead of doing it over the phone?’, ‘What if I had asked him to give us another chance?’. They consumed me, along with the feeling that I would never be enough for anyone. The thoughts entered my mind at any given moment as I retreated to the shell I was before him. 

Healing from heartbreak is never easy, but one must do it because it is never worth it tp topple your life over a single person. Everyone has a different way of overcoming it. Some do as many things as possible to distract themselves. Others seek solace in friends and family or even in solitude. Personally, speaking to as many people as possible helped me to see things clearly and helped unload the burden on me.  

As I started to heal from the heartbreak, I realized that it was also the start of something new for me. It got me started on my journey of self-improvement. I saw the flaws in me that exacerbated the issues in my past relationship and realized that I would experience heartbreak over and over if I did not fix them. It made me understand more about myself and what I wanted in life. I set personal goals for myself and vowed to move on and live a better life. I hope to emerge as a better person.

Heartbreak will always be seen as something negative that should be avoided, but heartbreak is a chance for growth. In its aftermath, one may pick up the pieces of a broken heart and use them to construct a better self. Through tears and pain, one may emerge from it stronger and wiser, ready to embrace the beauty that lies beyond a single heartbreak.